These last few weeks of the program have been SHIT!!! I have totally given up on the nutrition, totally given up in my training, i mean i'm training but i'm not really. If you know what i mean. Friggin dirty at myself for doing it. I have spent the last few weeks feeling sorry for myself. Instead of getting out there and doing something about it i have drowning in self pitty and food. I fell like crap. Sluggish and tired!!! What the hell am i doing??
I found that once i got to my goal weight (which i am not at now god damn it) i just gave up. Yep gave up all that hard work, gone!!! I just feel emotionally drained.
Now i had all these plans to go to the Finale with my new HOT ass bod and have a great time but now i just feel like why should i even bother!!! After seeing everyones transformations i was like holy, i done crap. I know i shouldn't compare myself to anyone else but i cant help it. Some of the transformations are just insane. I feel like i have just wasted my time, my money and most of all let myself down.
So i have made a pact with my sister and my mum that i am going to smash it out the next round. I need to get my shit together (gee how many times have i said this in the last 12weeks) and knuckle down starting from NOW. I am going to do everything that Mish tells me to. I PROMISE you Mish!!!!!