Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Looking Back

After writing my last post i was actually going back through some photos and i figured out that i have done some pretty bloody extraordinary things in the last few months. I have met some amazing inspiring people and i have inspired people.

I got to train with Emazon ......... It was deep. It was raw and it was just what i needed at the time. ( I truly only think that it has just hit me ) Clarity xx

I completed my first ever 10km fun run in 1 hr and 13 sec. I did this ...... ME all by myself!!

I trained with Margie ........ the winner of Biggest Loser 2012 ... How awesome and inspiring was she!!!

I got to meet and chat with UTE ...... the winner of L&S 12WBT. She was so inspiring, mum of 4 and still breast feeding. What the!!!! Amazing strong woman right there. She gives me hope.

 I have inspired my sister in law to get back into training ........ We have decided to do a triathlon together!! Yipee

 I have helped my sister get out of the rut that she was stuck in. I was that annoying person who would not give up and kept ringing her and txting her to come and train and checking on what she ate for the day etc ....... Haha i know she got pissed at me sometimes but i still love her to bits!!!

And finally my Mumma ....... i am so proud of her. I have inspired my mum to start her weight loss/fitness journey. She has lost 8kgs so far and so many more cms from around her body. She is felling healthier and happier and fitter than she ever has. Keep going Mumma, you got this!!! I love you and i am so very proud of you xx

I am pretty damn proud of myself right now. Happy to have been inspired and happy to help inspire people. I really didn't think i had accomplished much over the past few months BUT clearly i HAVE!!!! It just comes back to me time really doesn't it. I am just sitting here on my computer having a bit of me time ............... reflecting on what has been and thinking about all that is still to come.

MIA = Been a slack ass

It has been a good 3 months since my last entry so you know what that means, slack ass to the MAX!!!! Did not even finish the last round of 12WBT, got caught up in all the bullshit that was going on in my head. Gotta love that head space NOT!!

Anyway thought i better get my shit together and sort it. I have still been training, not as hard as i would like to be but hey i'm still giving it a burl. I got to my goal weight and kind of felt lost, didn't really have anywhere else to go from there. So just slowly drifted back in to my old ways. Started to sneak in chocolate here, lollies there, extra meals, stopped counting my calories etc etc etc .... you know where that leads to. Tired, depressed, Sluggish, Dirty at myself for letting it get that far, Failure and the list goes on. I have spent the last few weeks slowly getting my head above water. No excuses really. Just been to busy worrying about everybody else, worrying about making sure Hubby has meals prepared (he is on his health kick and is going great) Making sure that all the chores around the house are done, making sure the kids are all sorted for holidays, you know just putting everyone else before me again. Need to find Me time again. My treadmill broke and oh my lord my world crumbled, i couldn't possibly go run outside oh no. Then i went through the stage of the only time i could work out is if i got up at 5am, im not getting up that early why do i have to get up that early when everyone else gets to sleep in, When hubby can jump in the gym anytime he likes during the day BLAH BLAH BLAH!!! Same old bullshit going through my head.

So then i realised I was the only one that could do anything about it. ME ME ME ME ME!!! I have been following a lot of fitness people on instagram, reading a lot of quotes and looking at a load of pictures when i cam across this one. I read it and it totally made sense.

Now since then i have taken one day at a time. I have got my food journal back out. I write everything that i eat for the day plus what workout i do plus 3 things that i am grateful for that day. If i miss a training session i don't get upset about it. I just cop it on the chin and work extra harder on getting my nutrition right and work out harder tomorrow. I have committed to working out every Friday morning with other people. My sister is my training buddy, she keeps me accountable, we are each others rock!! I have been trying out new workouts to mix things up a bit. It is a slow and steady process but i am doing it. Slowly but surely. 

I have been tryin new recipes, green smoothies, different protein ball recipes, muffin recipes, protein bar recipes, granola bars etc etc. So i am really trying to mix it up a bit. I have just found out that there are so many people out there in the fitness world that are willing to pay it forward with all their knowledge. IT is incredible and so inspiring.

So i am happy to say that i am in the right place. Head space that is. Training well and food is under control. I gotta keep up with this because i have set myself some new fitness goals. Will post them soon just so i can be held accountable for them.