Looking Back

After writing my last post i was actually going back through some photos and i figured out that i have done some pretty bloody extraordinary things in the last few months. I have met some amazing inspiring people and i have inspired people.

I got to train with Emazon ......... It was deep. It was raw and it was just what i needed at the time. ( I truly only think that it has just hit me ) Clarity xx

I completed my first ever 10km fun run in 1 hr and 13 sec. I did this ...... ME all by myself!!

I trained with Margie ........ the winner of Biggest Loser 2012 ... How awesome and inspiring was she!!!

I got to meet and chat with UTE ...... the winner of L&S 12WBT. She was so inspiring, mum of 4 and still breast feeding. What the!!!! Amazing strong woman right there. She gives me hope.

 I have inspired my sister in law to get back into training ........ We have decided to do a triathlon together!! Yipee

 I have helped my sister get out of the rut that she was stuck in. I was that annoying person who would not give up and kept ringing her and txting her to come and train and checking on what she ate for the day etc ....... Haha i know she got pissed at me sometimes but i still love her to bits!!!

And finally my Mumma ....... i am so proud of her. I have inspired my mum to start her weight loss/fitness journey. She has lost 8kgs so far and so many more cms from around her body. She is felling healthier and happier and fitter than she ever has. Keep going Mumma, you got this!!! I love you and i am so very proud of you xx

I am pretty damn proud of myself right now. Happy to have been inspired and happy to help inspire people. I really didn't think i had accomplished much over the past few months BUT clearly i HAVE!!!! It just comes back to me time really doesn't it. I am just sitting here on my computer having a bit of me time ............... reflecting on what has been and thinking about all that is still to come.

MIA = Been a slack ass

It has been a good 3 months since my last entry so you know what that means, slack ass to the MAX!!!! Did not even finish the last round of 12WBT, got caught up in all the bullshit that was going on in my head. Gotta love that head space NOT!!

Anyway thought i better get my shit together and sort it. I have still been training, not as hard as i would like to be but hey i'm still giving it a burl. I got to my goal weight and kind of felt lost, didn't really have anywhere else to go from there. So just slowly drifted back in to my old ways. Started to sneak in chocolate here, lollies there, extra meals, stopped counting my calories etc etc etc .... you know where that leads to. Tired, depressed, Sluggish, Dirty at myself for letting it get that far, Failure and the list goes on. I have spent the last few weeks slowly getting my head above water. No excuses really. Just been to busy worrying about everybody else, worrying about making sure Hubby has meals prepared (he is on his health kick and is going great) Making sure that all the chores around the house are done, making sure the kids are all sorted for holidays, you know just putting everyone else before me again. Need to find Me time again. My treadmill broke and oh my lord my world crumbled, i couldn't possibly go run outside oh no. Then i went through the stage of the only time i could work out is if i got up at 5am, im not getting up that early why do i have to get up that early when everyone else gets to sleep in, When hubby can jump in the gym anytime he likes during the day BLAH BLAH BLAH!!! Same old bullshit going through my head.

So then i realised I was the only one that could do anything about it. ME ME ME ME ME!!! I have been following a lot of fitness people on instagram, reading a lot of quotes and looking at a load of pictures when i cam across this one. I read it and it totally made sense.

Now since then i have taken one day at a time. I have got my food journal back out. I write everything that i eat for the day plus what workout i do plus 3 things that i am grateful for that day. If i miss a training session i don't get upset about it. I just cop it on the chin and work extra harder on getting my nutrition right and work out harder tomorrow. I have committed to working out every Friday morning with other people. My sister is my training buddy, she keeps me accountable, we are each others rock!! I have been trying out new workouts to mix things up a bit. It is a slow and steady process but i am doing it. Slowly but surely. 

I have been tryin new recipes, green smoothies, different protein ball recipes, muffin recipes, protein bar recipes, granola bars etc etc. So i am really trying to mix it up a bit. I have just found out that there are so many people out there in the fitness world that are willing to pay it forward with all their knowledge. IT is incredible and so inspiring.

So i am happy to say that i am in the right place. Head space that is. Training well and food is under control. I gotta keep up with this because i have set myself some new fitness goals. Will post them soon just so i can be held accountable for them.

L&S baby

Totes loving this program baby!!! I have increased my weights a few times in the last few weeks. I am really noticing the difference in my lower body strength. Man my legs are strong. Stronger than i give them credit for. Now my upper body is what i was having issues with, i was not quite getting there with the increase in weight and i was doubting myself again. (Damn i hate the games my dumb head plays on me) BUT then i got on my trusty ol Lean & Strong facebook page and asked the question and like ALWAYS they came through with the goods and made me feel better. I love that damn Page!!! So i went in to my brand new workout today with an open mind and really strong muscles haha and VOILA BOOM BANG i was doing my first few reps with ease so UP went the weight. Totes Loved the feeling babe!!! I was smashing out the reps with the Chest press. Feeling OOOOOOOORRRRRRSome right about now.

I love the feeling of getting stronger, i love the feeling of pumping out all those reps and still having some left in the tank. I love how i can smash out MAN push ups (on my toes) I am so much more stronger than i give myself credit for. 

I recently got told that my shoulders are looking good ........ Damn right they are looking good. I have been working my ASS off. I can not wait to see the way my body has changed over the next 9 weeks. Bring it i say!!! Now the eating thing is NOT so good for me. I am still trying to figure out what works for me. I am increasing my protein intake and still really hungry some days so still doing lots of trial and error to see just how many calories my body needs. Still learning how to FUEL up my body. 

This is a pic that i took at the beginning of the round. I am going to be taking 4 week, and 8 week ones as well just so i can see my BIG muscles developing. Pretty exciting stuff.

Haha don't mind the nappy bag on the door handle .... Bloody kids!!!! 

Weigh in Wednesday

Not so significant to me anymore. I did weigh in last week and had lost 400 grams. I forgot this morning ... oopppsss!!!


Over the weekend i went up to Bundy for my dad's 60th. Had a little bit of a blow out with the food but still managed to train. I am totally loving the L&S program. I can feel i am getting stronger and not struggling as much as i was on the first day. I CAN NOT wait to start seeing results ....... now that will kick me into a whole new level. The weight sessions are good. I love the post session shakes that i get. I love feeling the burn. I love getting that protein into me after a workout. LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!! That's all i been feeling lately.

So for this weeks weekly surprise we were to do up an inspiration board. IT is so funny how the universe works because i had already printed and cut out all of my stuff for this ready to put together on my next kid free day. SO this first one i done up was for my personal inspiration. As you can see most of it is family. My family are absolutely everything to me. My kids, my husband, my sisters and mum and dad are my world. I have also included a few quotes that i LOVE and live by. The rest of it is to help me with my training, inspirational people and bodies that i just love.

This one is for my home gym. I love all these images and love these quotes. Looking at this everyday before i work out is AWESOME!!!!!  Lots of booty shots ..... can you tell i want a nice booty.One that sits up and doesn't have to be tucked into my undies. Nice round tight booty ........ Oh yeh baby!!!!

It's Game day

So after finally completing my pre season tasks it's Gooooooooo time!!!!


I was a little bit scared of the L&S program once i seen it. I have never really lifted weights before other than a few hand weights in classes. So once i had all my bits and pieces printed off, watched all the examples of all the exercises, put my 2 year old terror to bed for a midday nap and it was on. On like Donkey Kong!!!!!!


I told myself that i would do the least amount of weight suggested with the most reps on each exercise ......... And i was going to DO IT!!! No pussing out. After my first super set i was like WTF???? Can i really do this, this is crazy heavy for me. But yes i can do it and i bloody well did. I felt AWESOME after it!!!! Now i am pretty sure that i will be sore tomorrow but a good sore .... right???


Anyway i got to my pyramid set and HOLY MOLY ...... that shit is hard. I was thinking to myself it is only an increase of a few kilos for lesser reps ....... EASY AS BRO!!!! Ha ha NOT. I nearly had to call out to the hubby who was in the office to come spot for me. (maybe not spot, i was way past that point, more like come and lift this damn heavy shit off of me.) BUT i got it up, i done it. Surprised myself actually, i'm bloody STRONG mate.


Smashed out the step ups and then the final blast, loving it!! Abs mmmmmm not so much, still struggle hard with them but they will become my friend. Sooner rather than later!!! I dont think i have ever sweat so much during a workout. TOTALLY stuffed after it, even had the post workout shakes. Interesting ........ looking forward to having them again soon.


So what do i think of the L&S program ? ................. bloody AWESOME. I am really looking forward to seeing how much my body changes and how much stronger i become. Was nervous to start with but after getting my first workout out of the way i am ready to SMASH this L&S up.

I'm Back ....... I think!!!!

Today was the day that i was going to get my ass up and train. Now i haven't done anything since the Finale in Melbourne. I know I know, that is terrible but i just didn't want to. No excuse at all i just couldn't be bothered. Oh hang on that is an excuse ..... ooooppsss. Anyway so today was the day and today IS the day. No more excuses for me. It is to cold but just put on more clothes you knobhead, it is dark in the morning now so just train in the garage. Duh!! It is not rocket science, maybe i need a rocket shuvved up my bum, yeh that will do it. Haha you get my drift.


So after dropping all 3 kids at school, kindy and daycare i came home to my nice clean house that i cleaned yesterday, only a few loads of washing to fold so i figured today is the day. I got nothing else to do on my kid free day ......  so train it is.  


This round i have decided to go with the Lean & Strong program, i have reached my goal weight so i wanted to really test myself and get my weights ON. Plus i really need to tone up. So off i went onto my trusty old tready and smashed out 6km ..... very happy with that. I love running so i will still try and get a little run in here and there. Not to much cardio though. I got a Jillian Michaels dvd for my birthday called Ripped in 30 so i decided to do a workout from that after my run. BAD IDEA!!! The workout totally smashed me and i LOVED it. I'm Back baby .... I'm back in the groove. I got my g thing baby!!!


So for the rest of the day it ME time. Time to smash out my pre season tasks and get this party rocking. Bring on Round 3 for me!!! L&S baby xx


Jillian Michaels you are my hero and my savior (after Mish of course) you are exactly what i needed on my kid free day. 

NOW time to PARTY

So after all our hard work and spectacular day of being part of a world record it was off to the PARTY babeeeeee with Mish and her crew. WE rocked up a little late, as you do BUT holy it was packed. The room was just beautiful with so many beautiful people in it. It was like a wave hot you once you walked into the room, it was very surreal, very inspiring and really emotional  for me once i walked into that room. To be surrounded by like minded people who have absolutely smashed their goals, who have totally transformed their lives and their bodies was just incredible. I got a little teary, it was so very touching. Mish should be so proud of herself!!!

We meet up with our QLD girls and partied hard with them. they are all so much fun and we even made a few new friends along the way. I loved talking to everyone about their achievements. It was totally awesome to get to see all the girls in something other than their training gear, a few i had to do a double take because i didn't recognise them. Haha!!

 

My sister and i had an awesome night. We got to meet new people, we got to party with all the girls who we have trained with over the past 12 weeks. I also got to meet the most inspiring person, who helped me decide to sign up for another round and she was the reason why i decided to do Lean and Strong this round.  Miss Jaded!!! Thank you so much for your words of wisdom and your words of encouragement. 

Being a part of a World Record ... Boom!!!

All i can say is WOW!!! My sister and i went to the Finale in Melbourne, the group workout and the PARTY that followed. We got to meet Mish and she was just so lovley. Her assistant was trying to get her to leave and she was like 'I don't mind'. She really made time for all of us which made us feel so special. It was raining and cold, wet and miserable but Our mission for the day was to just get a photo with Mish. So we stalked her and just hung around where she was hoping that we would snag her. While everyone else was enjoying the other activities that was going on my sister and i made the decision to stay near the gates where the group workout was going to be held and hope for the best. IT WORKED!!!! Mish came to the gates and we jumped right in and cuddled her and said Thank you and all that jibberish stuff. I'm sure i held her so tight i nearly squeezed the life out of her ....lol!!!! But what an amazing, inspiring, exciting, moving and encouraging women. I mean we all know that right, that's why we are doing her program. But it is just so way better in person. Margie was there and so was Alex from the biggest loser so it was just really a big workout party.

So we started off in the freezing cold, i mean freezing cold. It was raining as well to make it even worse BUT it was so worth it. We got to meet and talk to Mish's support crew. they were all so lovely and encouraging. The group work out was INSANE ..... so so much fun!!! 

   

      

To be a part of this World Record was AWESOME!! The actual workout was intense and fun fun fun. It was a circuit workout so different stations doing different exercises then running between them. WE braved the weather and took off all our layers before we started training, we didn't stay cold for long, my heart rate went through the roof once we got going. Just seeing all different types of people out there giving it a go was inspirational in itself. A whole lot of like minded people in the same place working toward the same goal .... How awesome is that!!!

  

It was such a wonderful experience and to be able to do it with my sister was the BEST!!! We had such a great weekend together. Just the vibe from all the people was very cool. We even made some new friends as well as got to do this with our girls from Brisbane. What a great bunch, you really do feel like a family with all the 12WBT crew.

Now Mish i know you have probably heard this a thousand times but THANK YOU. Thank you for bringing me back to life. Before this program i was just an overweight mum who loved her kids and husband, who would always put there needs first. Never had time for myself, just going about everyday life with no zest or no meaning ............. Now i am a Super sexy mumma who is at her goal weight. Who has so many goals to achieve over the next year. Who looks forward to everyday, who is happier, healthier and setting a great example for my children. I have even found some new loves in my life ..... I love running, i love lifting weights, i love getting sweaty, i love having goals to smash and i love MYSELF.

I love you Mish .......... Thank you from my whole body ( bottom of the heart just didn't seem enough hehe )

Just Saying .......

Weigh In Wednesday

Wake Up - Wee - Weigh in _ NUDE!!!!
Final weigh in for the Michelle Bridges 12 WBT program. Am i happy?? Meehhhh


Well that's what i did and i wasn't friggin happy. I am sitting at 69.1kgs. Did not get to my goal weight and have had a few hiccups along the way. Feeling let down with myself, Deflated.


But what i have learnt from this program is that it aint gana be easy. SHIT if it was easy the world would be full of skinny ass fit looking people. I will have my good days and my bad my bloody awesome days and my sensational days. It is all about consistency. It is a learning process and sometimes it is a hard one to fit into your already routined life. We have to make a few tweeks here and there but we will get there. Life throws you some curve balls but we just have to learn to deal with it and move on. The love and support shown from complete strangers just blows me away, i'm talking about my fellow 12WBT SEQ crew. These women are so inspirational.


I have done one good thing during my journey though .... i have inspired my sister in law to get back into running. Something that she had not done for years. If i can do this to just one person throughout my journey than i will feel great. Pay it forward i say!!!


I'm super proud of her!!!! And she has inspired me to keep going.

MIA baby

Haha see what that says!!!!!!  Up there can you see it ... well this is what has going on in my head these last few weeks. The bloody shit that i talk to myself. I have been missing in action, someone else has taken over my damn body. I think it was my EVIL self.


These last few weeks of the program have been SHIT!!! I have totally given up on the nutrition, totally given up in my training, i mean i'm training but i'm not really. If you know what i mean. Friggin dirty at myself for doing it. I have spent the last few weeks feeling sorry for myself. Instead of getting out there and doing something about it i have drowning in self pitty and food. I fell like crap. Sluggish and tired!!! What the hell am i doing??


I found that once i got to my goal weight (which i am not at now god damn it) i just gave up. Yep gave up all that hard work, gone!!! I just feel emotionally drained. 


Now i had all these plans to go to the Finale with my new HOT ass bod and have a great time but now i just feel like why should i even bother!!! After seeing everyones transformations i was like holy, i done crap. I know i shouldn't compare myself to anyone else but i cant help it. Some of the transformations are just insane. I feel like i have just wasted my time, my money and most of all let myself down.


So i have made a pact with my sister and my mum that i am going to smash it out the next round. I need to get my shit together (gee how many times have i said this in the last 12weeks) and knuckle down starting from NOW. I am going to do everything that Mish tells me to. I PROMISE you Mish!!!!!

Mount Warning

A few weeks back my sisters and i went and climbed Mount Warning ... WOW!!! It was so different to what i expected. Great fun and very chilly.


Our day started at 2.30am, yes that's right 2.30am!! Might i just add that that was after only 2 hours sleep due to my awesome kids being little terrors but hey that is a whole different story. So off we went down to coast. Now we had no idea where to go or what to expect so it was a fun adventure. We took the wrong route (of course we did) and ended up on some seedy looking back windy roads full of fog, it was also raining so it was the stuff straight out of a horror movie kind of thing. Now one sister was in the back sleeping and i was awake with the other trying to keep her awake. Then we came over this hill on a pitch black road when this guy came running out on to the st waving his arms ..... ummm what the F?? I was saying to my sister 'do not wind the window down. He came to the window and asked us if we had a rope to help pull him and his mate out of the ditch .... HELL NO!!! We just kept driving. Sorry mate.


Finally get to the Mountain, pitch black put on our little head lamps and off we go. It was wet, muddy, rocky, cold and windy .... all of the good things. But it was an experience. Walking through the tracks hearing all different noises not knowing what is 2 feet in front of us. One of my sisters just kept asking ' how long have we been walking for' Are we half way yet' How much longer to go', i was like shut the hell up, you are wrecking my buzzzz. We were hoping to get to the summit before the sun rose .... well we missed that BUT due to the shitty day you couldn't see anything up at the summit anyway so it worked out well. 

Now it was challenging at the best of times but then we hit the final ascent .... Holy Moly!! Really a chain on a rock face. Now this is going to hurt. But we did it!!! It was fantastic to know that we had all achieved something like that and to do it with my sisters was great.


We sat up on the summit with about 12 other people eating our yummy packed lunch. I couldn't believe how many people were up there, crazy people like ourselves. We started our descent and it seemed to be so much faster then on the way up. There was more to look at and lots of cool places to stop and take some photos. Every person we passed going up i was like 'good luck, do you know how far you still have to go.' Sneaky lil laugh to myself. We ended up getting home about 11am, so it was an Epic day for us.


The hike took us about 4 hours. That was with a stop at the summit for breakfast. It was so worth doing and i am glad that i did it. I manages to burn 2985 calories in the process so that my SSS done!!!!

Yay i done it!!!!

Wednesday = Weigh In Day

Wake Up - Wee - Weigh In - NUDE!!!

Well that is exactly what i did yesterday and Poo, shit, bum!!! It was not good. I didnt' post yesterday because i thought that maybe if i didn't acknowledge it it would go away. Haha WRONG!!!!

Now my weight as of yesterday was 70.2kgs WTF??? Not a happy camper. I was so friggin close last week. 300 grams off of my goal weight and BOOM up to that. Damn it. Now it is that time of the month and i do put on at least a few kgs BUT really now. I don't want to wait till next week to hit my weight. It was kind of depressing.

I did manage to get out and exercise yesterday morning but didn't do much. I had DOMS something terrible. I have really been upping my training with my legs and my Ass, now i need my ass to sit up by itself and not giggle so much when i walk. Tone tone tone is what i have been focusing on. SO i was feeling down and crappy, just wanted to eat all the chocolate in the world when DADA i get a text. It was from my personal trainer who just happens to be the current Australian Light Middle weight boxing champ. I have been training with him for a while now but he had a bit of time off due to him getting married and going away. I also had some time off of boxing with my injuries BUT it was just what i needed at the time. He said you keen to get back into it tomorrow morning ... I was like HELL YEH!!! It was just what i needed, a good kick up the bum.

So i trained hard this morning and smashed out 415 calories in a half hour session. Oh how i have missed my boxing training, i bloody love it. You get to smash those pads .... oh it feels so good. So thank you Tyrone for that life saving text, because of that little text i am back in the game and more focused than ever now.

Ready to smash out these last few weeks and finish just the way i started.

Time to stop Playin

Ok now if i have done my calculations right i have just over 10 weeks to get me to where i need to be to run this half marathon on the Gold Coast.

I need to trust in myself and know that i can do this.

I need to stick to my diet and training schedule.

I need to put in the hard yards and the early mornings to make this goal become reality.

I need to BELIEVE in myself.

Now i have a few red flags coming up during this process BUT i need to be strong and power on toward my goal. For one there is the 12WBT finale and then there is my birthday. I need to not go stupid and still enjoy myself but remember all the hard work i have put in to get me to where i am today. I am NOT going to spoil that!!!

So in saying that i will be getting up in the morning and i AM going to run 2 x city loops which will be just over 12kms. I can so do this, when i run just one loop i feel that i could so go again so tomorrow is D day for me and then this will just prove to me that i AM and i WILL be ready for this half marathon on the 1st July.

BRING IT!!!!!

My latest Photo

This is just a random pic of me that my hubby took while i was sorting the washing .................

Bahaha i effing wish my ass looked like this. Got ya!!!!! My ass will look like this one day and then i will really take a photo of myself to show you all. lol

Wednesday = Weigh In Day

Wake up - Wee - Weigh in - NUDE!!!!

Holy shit was not looking forward to this day with all of the bloody chocolate i have eaten over the last few days and the pretty average few weeks that i have had with my food. BUT i was ready to grin and bear it and cop it on the chin. Now the last few weeks the scales have been heading in the wrong direction, UP!!! What the hell.

So with my naked little body and my fingers crossed i jumped on those scale this morning and VOILA ...... 68.3kgs today. Whoop Diddty Whoop. Pretty happy with how it worked out this morning. I have slumped a bit over the last few weeks, i have been training like an animal on heat BUT also eating like one. Booooooo.

So far this round i have lost a total of 4.5kgs (they say the last 5kgs is a mongrel to lose and they aint lying) I am in the healthy BMI range 24.2, exactly where i want to be. And i have lost a total of 26cm off my body.

So i am pretty happy with that. I am only 300 grams off of my goal weight ............. Come on baby i can do this!!!!

LISA CURRY - What more can i say!!

When an awesome opportunity came my way to train with Lisa Curry how could i say no. Who cares if i had to get up at 4am and make the 1 and a half hr drive to the sunshine coast. That's nothing!!! Pffft well it seemed like a good idea at the time.

When Lisa posted on her facebook page that she was holding an open training session in Alexandra Headlands i immediately rang my sister and told here that we had to do this. She was like yes for sure and then when we started to work out what time we had to get up, how long the drive was, whether or not she had to take the kids, it all started to seem a little to hard but JFDI thats what we did. Up at 4am, my sister had to drag her kids out of bed (along with a niece to look after them while we trained) then off on a road trip to train with Lisa Curry OMG.

We arrived and it was still dark (yay not). Slowly more and more people showed up. There were quite a few of us that made the trip down from Brisbane, What an awesome effort. We went and met Lisa and WHOA she was buff as. Her guns were amazing and she looked fab. I was a little star struck as i was a huge fan of her when she was a swimmer and Grant when he was a life saver. She was so lovely and really down to earth. We had the best session. The sun was rising over the water, we were training on the top of the hill with the waves crashing below ...... now this is my dream workout location. We jogged, we smashed our legs, we ran up hills and we annihilated our abs. WOW what a session. I managed to burn 780 calories in the hour and man she made us work hard for them.

After the session we all got a photo, even my little nephews who we dragged out of bed managed get in the photo, so cute!!! Because they were such good boys we promised them a swim in the ocean ........ The best finish ever to an awesome start to the day. Mooloolaba was amazing and so busy so early in the morning. The water was so refreshing, definately worth the 4am wake up call.

I would do it again in a heart beat.

Oxfam Fundraiser walk

Now when i seen that the ladies who are doing the Oxfam 100km trail walk were having a fundraiser day/walk i was like HELL YEH!!!!

I'm always looking for new and exciting things to put into my training schedule to mix things up a bit. It was so much fun. I was really surprised that i enjoyed it so much. It did take us just under 3 hours to walk a 11.4km track BUT it went really quick. Now there was 2 bloody BIG hills that we had to go up and down but hey that is part of the fun right. It got my heart rate up and my legs burning but it felt good. What an awesome start to a long weekend. My sister and i were up about 4.30am to get up to Mount Cootha and meet all the other women doing the walk. What a great turn out we had, i think it ended up being around 28 of us. How cool is that!!!!

Now we only did the final section that these lovely ladies have to do in their hike and it was the easiest apparently. Holy i really admire these women but think they are crazy at the same time. I mean 100kms in 48hrs NON STOP. What the???? What an awesome thing these ladies are doing, raising funds for Oxfam.

All up it was a great way to burn some calories and meet some more of the 12WBT family. I think i hit 960 calories burned, hows that for 3 hours work!!! I love this damn program and all the things that it has to offer in so many different ways.

Wednesday = Weigh In Day

Wake Up - Wee - Weigh In - NUDE!!!

Poo shit bum ass ...... The scales are going in the wrong direction. I am up again this week. 69.8kgs is where i am at right now!!!

I promised myself that i wouldn't do this, that i wouldn't fall off the wagon like i did last round. It seems like De JaVu. What the hell????

Now i have not been exercising much these last few weeks and been eating enough crappy food for an army. I'm rebelling lol. I have my period and have felt down for the last few days BUT i have managed to train every day this week so far. YAY for me. I even went for a run this morning and then going to boxing fitness tonight with my sissy. Just what i need i think. So i am going to do my measurements at the end of the week after my bloated fat period belly goes away. I have been getting my migraines back as well .... i know this is my body telling me to stop doing all this dumb shit to it and get my act together. I'm listening body, just bear with me while i go through this little patch and i will be back on it.

Thank you Body for being so fabulous!!!!!

Confession

So after my BIG epic weekend of training last week i have not done anything but sit on my medium size ass and eat and eat and eat and eat!!!! F*%#

What the hell am i doing??? I really don't know where this has come from. I know what i need to do to achieve my goals and that ain't it. What the hell is going on in this little head of mine???

Maybe i am scared of failure, of letting people down. If i just don't try i won't have live up to my promises, up to my word. If i stop now it won't be that much of an issue because the half marathon is still like 12 weeks away and people will forget what i had said by then. Why the hell am i having these thoughts??? It all just seems to hard for me at the moment. The thought of running a half marathon scares the shit out of me. It sounded all good in theory but once you actually sign up for it and commit, holy shit!!!!!

I am in a bad mental place at the moment and i need to pull back and refocus. Maybe go back through the pre season tasks and watch all the videos AGAIN!!!! I need motivation, i need consistency and i need balance in my life. I didn't lose any weight last week and i kind of used the TTOTM excuse and the nearly at my goal weight excuse. I have to re visit my goals, i know i can do it. I know that the goals i have set for myself are achievable, i just need to want to do it. I can't be bothered!!!!

So in saying that i got up early this morning, got dressed and drove down to the river. I argued and fought with myself the whole way, even sat in the car and pondered whether to get out and go for a run or not. IT was still dark and no one else was around. Yes, No, Will I, Won't I SO yes i did. Got my ass out of the car and started to run. Now i was not feeling it at all, i kept playing with my ipod trying to find music to get me in the right mood, was cursing myself thinking what the hell am i doing. Then by the time i got into a groove i was half way around the loop and thought 'SHIT i gotta get all the way back over there to where my car is' so i had to keep on running. I did finish the 6.2km loop and i was not happy about it BUT it was done. I was still arguing with myself when i had finished and then i thought shut the hell up it is done, get home to your kids!!! It is so draining arguing with yourself.

Oh the conversations i have to myself in my head ... they are really quite amusing once i think about it.

So here's to a new week and a new plan of attack. To stay positive and to be grateful. To take one day at a time and to be HAPPY xx xx

Smashed out some calories on the Weekend

Last weekend my big sister and kids came down from Bundaberg for a visit. She is doing the 12 WBT also and has struggled to burn anymore than 500 calories SO my other sister and i decided that we would give her a little helping hand and a big kick up the bum in the right direction. We had planned out an EPIC weekend of training for us all.

We started off our weekend with a few laps at the local pool (it was a little chilly and we were talking to much so not many laps got done) followed by an hour and a half long boxing session that i managed to burn 980 calories in and she burned 800 and something. So i was very proud of her. We then came home to do our 6 Minute sweat session, i have got everyone onto this and we are all going good with it. We ended up with a little bit of a crowd. All the kids came into the garage to watch us (more like laugh at us all) Little shits!!!!

And we ended the weekend off with The GI Jane PIP bootcamp. How awesome was that!!!!!! We had so much fun there. We even put on a bit of war paint to get into the spirit of things. So all up we had a great work out weekend. My BIG sister was happy and it kicked started her journey again for her. But the most important thing was that we got to do it all together. I am so happy to be able to do this program with my sisters, last round i done it by myself and was kind of feeling lonely.

My next goal is to sign my mum up for the next round with me, she sounds keen but we will see when it comes to D day.